I went to Peniel Prayer Mountain for a
2-days retreat (EGR- Encounter God Retreat) last week. It’s actually a long
overdue experience since my husband has been convincing me to go there for
quite some time but I was only able to leave work last week.
I went there with our Pastora and another delegate
from our church with honestly a few expectations. Don’t get me wrong, I know
why people go on retreat and how this journey makes them change their way of
living or at least their way of thinking but during that time I really don’t
expect much. I went there to fulfill the promise I made with God when I was in
a hospital on December for a D&C (raspa) but what I did not expect is how
this journey could change my life.
That 2 days retreat made me reflect on the
way I live my life and how I live it wrong. It made me think of my mistakes in
the past and the mistakes that I continually commit in the present. It made me
reflect on my way of thinking, on my way of saying things. It made me think of
my dis-contentedness to all the blessings that God has given me. It made
me reflect on how I treat my parents and other love-ones for the matter. I’ve
never been emotional and I’m used to hide my feelings so I did not expect that I
will be able to open up and share all my deepest emotions.
I
poured everything that’s inside me…I cried a lot. If crying a river is an
exaggeration then perhaps I’m exaggerating but I really felt like I cried a
river that time.
I know I’m not perfect and I’m committing
mistakes but this retreat really enlightened my mind and open my heart to the
wrongness of my way of living.
